Now the good news. Because, I guess, the management likes my work,I am getting to stay on past my current extension on my contract to something more full time and permanent. I will be team teaching with a great guy who knows the math and I will do the language, social and science. We will also be available to tutor students and do marking and especially (I hope) learning how to use all the distance learning equipment.
The great thing will be to have another group of students to work with, to test my program with (which I basically had to create from scratch and personalize it to my strengths and weaknesses but leave it flexible enough for the kind of adult students that I teach.) another chance to do that all in 120 hours. 5 subject including Math...to adults, many who haven't been in school in years. I don't want to fail them.
I want the faith the directors of this school have put in me to be deserved. I want my partnership with Colin to be a model for the future of Adult Education that is flexible and adapted to each student - well each students willing to put in the effort.
Currently this is my first go round with a group of students going for their GED. I hope I have done enough good to help them and I hope my own inexperience with this kind of educational delivery didn't harm them enough to keep them from passing the tests.
Just imagine the next group...then the group after that. I am good at this stuff, REALLY GOOD. I have a chance to make a difference in a lot of people's lives. I am in a good place with great people supporting me. I have the drive and skills to rock this one out and rock it out hard.
So how to I keep from failing? How do I keep from screwing this up like I have screwed up every other opportunity or project or dream in my life? How do I break the pattern and feel what it must feel like to have a real life....just for a moment.
I know that is more than the gods will allow me but I have suffered enough.
Any advice is graciously accepted.
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5 comments:
you can't keep from failing. i'm not saying you will fail at the entire project but there will be things that just won't pan out. the trick is not to let the little things eat away at all the good things that are happening at the same time. not every egg is going to hatch but there will be enough to make a mountain of a denver omlet, my friend.
you've got half of done because you actually care about it, now it's just a matter of following through with the motions and keeping you head up.
stay on top of the students who don't really care but don't let their failures become yours on a personal level. remember the horses and water.
keep at it brother, things will go your way.
Thanks for that buddy.
my pleasure
You've got the desire. Now just believe that you CAN do it, and once you HAVE done it, then you'll KNOW that you can do it. And just keep doing what works.
I can't give you advice in teaching. BUT... You are a confident man and are confident in your skills as an educator. If someone fails it's on them ..you did not fail...they did.
Don't burden yourself with hypotheticals... You got this!!! Teach these students and your intellect will rub off. Do your THANG Cal-Man. Chin up , EYES open and mind clear. Smirk to yourself and educate. Any positive thing that comes out of this...you deserve. You earned it already by being you.
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