Thursday, July 30, 2009

Am I Obsessive?


I was thinking just now about a comment Dr Monkey left on a post of mine about how I am obsessive in my blogging (He didn't say it was a bad thing). It gave me pause to think. Do I really give to much time to this blog and my other writing projects and is that a bad thing overall to my life and my happiness? I spend so much of my day writing and looking at things around the internet that when I see something that interests me I just have to post about it. To me, its like having a conversation with someone that is living with me (something that will NEVER happen since no one ever loved me that much). Since for the most part I am alone in my world I surely would have died by now having to keep everything inside my own head because I wasn't able to have an outlet for my passions and opinions. For example, today some really awesomely fucked up things happened on the UK version of Big Brother. I am dying to talk with someone about it who knows the show like I do. Can you imagine how frustrating and lonely that makes a person feel? I have no unexpressed thoughts in my head and maybe that is a bad thing but I have come to accept that its the 'magic that is me'. Just look how one word got this post started. I have no problem keeping up with my prolific pace and I am sure that many people see it as a bad thing. Like maybe I should get a life..a real life. But trust me, my life online is so much better than my life ever was in the real world. I feel like I have been blessed with having the financial freedom not to have to go to work everyday so I can devote my time to things I care about. Online I feel that I actually have people to talk to and share things with...things that we both find interesting. None of my real world friends ever were into action figures or cartoons or comic books or television to the degree that I am. None of them share my hatred for the cephalopods (okay that one I admit to being obsessive over). I have no interest to talk sports all the time if ever. At my age its a waste of my time to interact with people who don't 'get' me. That may have worked when I was younger but it doesn't now. I have written a book and three graphic novels in the past year aside from constantly posting on my blog. I made a promise to my father when he died that I would take at least a year and do what I always dreamed of doing. I feel I have fulfilled that promise to him. I know if he was still with me he would be all over this blog stuff. The man knew a good thing when he saw it. In a way this entire effort is a tribute to him. Thank you Dr Monkey for giving me an honest diagnosis. In defending myself I have found the strength not to care what other people think. Like the lesson I learned from Riess over at Geek Orthodox, I don't write for anyone else but myself. When others appreciate that effort its icing on the cake.

6 comments:

YieTze said...

I have to agree with what you said :) please continue sharing your life :) and I believe your dad will feel happy to know you are doing something you love to do , cheerss

Wings said...

Well said, Cal!

Keep surfing, posting and sharing, you do have good friends out there! Just cause we live in the Internet community instead of a physical, local one, doesn't make us any different. It is one of the great things about the age we live in.

I will keep reading and sharing with you, as well.

This is the quote I have on the bottom of my blog:

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” - Dr. Seuss

Your friend - Joe :)

Dr. Monkey Von Monkerstein said...

Dude, you're doing something right. Don't stop now.

Reis O'Brien said...

Yeah, man... I try to just write about whatever I would normally want to talk about down at the coffee shop if I had coffee shop friends who would listen to my nerdy crap. They won't, and I didn't want to be "that guy" so I switched my geek outlet to the internet. It's worked like a charm, as I've met hundreds of like-minded folk, and my real-life homies are spared my nerdiness.

It's tough being the group's resident geek. Thank the gods I have you guys!

You're blog is pure, Cal. Don't stop doing whatever you're doing!

Nicole said...

Well put! I very much enjoy reading your blog, and I enjoy reading and sharing. I will continue to read and share, as so should you!

Chase March said...

Hi Calvin,

I completely agree with you. It's hard to find people that "get you." I know from experience as well. It's easier to find these people online.

I think you are doing a great job and that you needn't worry about being called obsessive. I think everyone is obsessive to some extent.

Any chance you can share your graphic novels with your readers. I'd love to see what you have done with them.