First of all my stupid Doctor makes an appointment with me for 8 am. I am there at 8 am. I watch his Aryan Uber-Nurse leave the place to get a coffee, come back and lock the door behind her. This is at 8:20. I knock on the door and even though she knows me she doesn't let me into the clinic but stands there like I am some hobo wanted to poop in their bathroom sink.
Frauline Brunhilde then coldly informs me they don't open until nine but then I remind her about my eight am appointment. She says they don't do those early appointments (even though I ALWAYS see my Doc at eight - first thing in the morning before someone else pisses him off) and quickly shuts and locks the door on me.
At this point I have two options. One is calmly walking away and coming back at nine. The second involves me tossing a stone garbage can through the window and going for a sit in the examination room.
I did a variation on the two choices and left but now I refuse to go back after the way I was treated.
I really get more upset about those kinds of moments then I should. I feel calm and fine right now. The funny thing is that I was seeing my South African tomato hating Doctor because I wanted him to find a med that worked for me and helped me from flying into these fits when confronted with stupid people and the other little frustrations of life.
I have gotten good at controlling my own mania but sometimes, in the face of the rudeness and inconsiderate behaviors of others, I can become what I hate the most. No shame is seeking some medical way to control those outbursts - which I repeat are RARE but still disconcerting to me.
I am calm now and haven't reached for anything stronger than a Pepsi Max (MAX TASTE FOR MY MAX LIFE) to soothe my frustrated brow. I know that spending too much time alone where I don't really have to compromise with the world has dulled my people skills but I still know the difference between being treated like a human being and being treated like a piece of garbage.
Do you see what happens when you leave the house? Never leave the house. You never leave the boat in the jungle (lest you get chased by a tiger) and you never leave the house. Bad things happen when you leave the house.